So, I read this last night. Then, I went back and immediately read it again and then, this morning as I had my morning work postponed for the afternoon, I read it again. I am not saying this because I am some sort of strange creature that reiterates their daily activity, but because this story was simply that good. Honestly, I don't really ship Kaiyeol at all. In fact, they are one of the few pairings I just can never place. However, this story was beyond perfection and full of some of the best writing I have read so far.
I will admit that you are one of my favorite authors and that I am sadly too chicken to ever get up the courage and say something about it but, well, I read this thing three times in a row and I figure if I don't comment and simply say that this was one of the best things ever, it would probably be some sort of crime.
First, the characterizations. Somehow, everything you write and everything, especially here, is so tangible and poignant and fitting that it makes you really believe the characters. Not only that, but how it is so easy and realistic compared to how they are in real life it just makes it that more amazing. Reading Chanyeol and his emotions and his complexities regarding his own personal idea of how he must be and his conflict when faced with Jongin was heartbreaking and so many feelings. I also really loved the switch between past and present and all of the memories and history between Chanyeol and Jongin.
Then there's just Chanyeol. Chanyeol, who is already my favorite person, here just broke my heart and put it all back together again over and over. How he tries so hard and feels so much and then just holds it all in is so acute and strong and his constant pursuit of Jongin despite how Jongin clearly has no real idea or ability to understand or express himself just kept throwing this story deeper and deeper. I will not lie. For the vast majority of this story as I read it I was making rather emotional hand gestures and did that awkward clutching motion in the chest of my shirt frequently because holy Hell feelings. I honestly do think that Chanyeol is probably exactly as you describe him as well. He is always smiling and showing so much optimism and working so hard to be the Happy Virus but you know there is more to it. He may be a big laughing loud and slightly clumsy guy, but there's also probably a lot more there that we, as fans, don't entire see and I doubt he shows readily.
Also, I just have to say it because it's there and you wrote it but Baekhyun is one of my favorite people in this. Honestly, I love Baekhyun anyway but you captured him so well. His friendship with Chanyeol is so beautiful and sweet and the added dynamic of Wu Fan as well as Chanyeol's support just was so many good hurting things.
Thank you for this. Seriously. Thank you. I am telling pretty much everyone I know who reads EXO fic to read this because honestly it was just that amazing and lovely and dear god I love your writing.
I'll go crawl under my desk now because I'm shit at writing comments and this just is too many words and I am far too embarrassed. But again, thank you for your genius.
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Date: 2012-10-26 01:31 am (UTC)I will admit that you are one of my favorite authors and that I am sadly too chicken to ever get up the courage and say something about it but, well, I read this thing three times in a row and I figure if I don't comment and simply say that this was one of the best things ever, it would probably be some sort of crime.
First, the characterizations. Somehow, everything you write and everything, especially here, is so tangible and poignant and fitting that it makes you really believe the characters. Not only that, but how it is so easy and realistic compared to how they are in real life it just makes it that more amazing. Reading Chanyeol and his emotions and his complexities regarding his own personal idea of how he must be and his conflict when faced with Jongin was heartbreaking and so many feelings. I also really loved the switch between past and present and all of the memories and history between Chanyeol and Jongin.
Then there's just Chanyeol. Chanyeol, who is already my favorite person, here just broke my heart and put it all back together again over and over. How he tries so hard and feels so much and then just holds it all in is so acute and strong and his constant pursuit of Jongin despite how Jongin clearly has no real idea or ability to understand or express himself just kept throwing this story deeper and deeper. I will not lie. For the vast majority of this story as I read it I was making rather emotional hand gestures and did that awkward clutching motion in the chest of my shirt frequently because holy Hell feelings. I honestly do think that Chanyeol is probably exactly as you describe him as well. He is always smiling and showing so much optimism and working so hard to be the Happy Virus but you know there is more to it. He may be a big laughing loud and slightly clumsy guy, but there's also probably a lot more there that we, as fans, don't entire see and I doubt he shows readily.
Also, I just have to say it because it's there and you wrote it but Baekhyun is one of my favorite people in this. Honestly, I love Baekhyun anyway but you captured him so well. His friendship with Chanyeol is so beautiful and sweet and the added dynamic of Wu Fan as well as Chanyeol's support just was so many good hurting things.
Thank you for this. Seriously. Thank you. I am telling pretty much everyone I know who reads EXO fic to read this because honestly it was just that amazing and lovely and dear god I love your writing.
I'll go crawl under my desk now because I'm shit at writing comments and this just is too many words and I am far too embarrassed. But again, thank you for your genius.