I just love this. I don't know why you would think that I wouldn't? But I do. It's perfectly timed and detailed and so well characterized most of the descriptions and moments here will probably remain as canon with me forever. I love how good you are with taking canon and echoing it into your characters and your story. Yixing's defining photographs as his self-composed songs. That got me A LOT. And well I don't have to comment on Tears Airport it's my goddamn twitter username, I just have a lot of delusional feelings about it. There's just a lot of this Yixing that I find must be similar to how he really is, I mean, even if we can never know how he really is.
I think when I was reading I appreciated the photography parts so much that I saw Jongin here a lot as a subject, and maybe partly because Yixing is my ultimate bias, so much of my reading this went into experiencing this Yixing. I think I need to read it again because I drank in every word and every reference that jumped at me sort of kept tipping the scales of my feelings so now I'm a sobbing wreck. LOL. I don't even know why? This is KaiXing but for some reason it felt really personal to me. Until the very end when you write that, the film he uses is color film I'm just. It says a lot. A LOT. And then you write, This is luck. Because that's what photography really is. It's luck. It's the right moment with the right lighting with the right film and right timing of the shutter--and those "right" things can only be so prepared. Most of it is luck.
Also I just want to say it's funny, and a mark of how intense this is for me, I didn't even realize the parallels you drew between Yixing's real life history and his life in this fic until that comment below. You're so amazing Maia. I'm just really blessed to even have you as a friend and you writing this for me. I know it's like, you call this a monster and you don't know what you wrote, but it's so...poignant? Intense to me. I just want you to know that your fic has that effect on people and it's amazing.
So, yeah. Totally making a book out of this. ♥
I don't even know what I can give to you back that will compare omg. ♥
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I just love this. I don't know why you would think that I wouldn't? But I do. It's perfectly timed and detailed and so well characterized most of the descriptions and moments here will probably remain as canon with me forever. I love how good you are with taking canon and echoing it into your characters and your story. Yixing's defining photographs as his self-composed songs. That got me A LOT. And well I don't have to comment on Tears Airport it's my goddamn twitter username, I just have a lot of
delusionalfeelings about it. There's just a lot of this Yixing that I find must be similar to how he really is, I mean, even if we can never know how he really is.I think when I was reading I appreciated the photography parts so much that I saw Jongin here a lot as a subject, and maybe partly because Yixing is my ultimate bias, so much of my reading this went into experiencing this Yixing. I think I need to read it again because I drank in every word and every reference that jumped at me sort of kept tipping the scales of my feelings so now I'm a sobbing wreck. LOL. I don't even know why? This is KaiXing but for some reason it felt really personal to me. Until the very end when you write that, the film he uses is color film I'm just. It says a lot. A LOT. And then you write, This is luck. Because that's what photography really is. It's luck. It's the right moment with the right lighting with the right film and right timing of the shutter--and those "right" things can only be so prepared. Most of it is luck.
Also I just want to say it's funny, and a mark of how intense this is for me, I didn't even realize the parallels you drew between Yixing's real life history and his life in this fic until that comment below. You're so amazing Maia. I'm just really blessed to even have you as a friend and you writing this for me. I know it's like, you call this a monster and you don't know what you wrote, but it's so...poignant? Intense to me. I just want you to know that your fic has that effect on people and it's amazing.
So, yeah. Totally making a book out of this. ♥
I don't even know what I can give to you back that will compare omg. ♥