this, dear dear girl, is beyond.. reading this is like watching a certain kind of genius at work, and that, through a veil. i wonder, do you realise you are also playing the game here, your own honne and tatemae as regards jin (especially) on view? [if one can use the term like that - forgive my non jap. ignorance]. in which case i salute you. it cannot have been easy to write. i will comment later. when i have taken it in..and am able to.. [and if the above is just my reading, and way off, forgive me..]....depe^che mode 'stripped' was running background all the way thru this..