Maia, this is a million different kinds of perfect. I don't even know where to start...
I loved your older version of Kame. He's strong, he's content with his life choices for the most part, but there are also these moments when something slips through the cracks and we can see just how jaded he really is inside, how much he misses that other part of him that got away, and it made me doubt at times, and wonder if it was all just an act. And I loved your older version of Jin because... Kame loved him so much, and later, much later, I loved him because even at forty he's still the same selfish, irresponsible, adorable brat.
"He’s enjoyed not talking about things that make him feel like he’s bleeding inside." That's such an evocative sentence. It's also when I first realised there would be many tears ;____;
"KAT-TUN had saved Kame when Kame was sure he couldn’t be saved. They’d started as strangers, but they’ve become brothers." That is KAT-TUN. That is how I like to think of them. Idek okay. Idek. *____* #myfangirlheart
All those little bits where Kame thinks about love and the Sun... they're just amazing. I don't even know how to comment on them because they're so raw, so intense, pure unadulterated longing and Kame's trying to explain it, to himself, to the world, somehow and asdfghjk And then there's the metaphor with Jin as a t-shirt. I don't even know how that could hit me as hard as it did. #allthetears #imawimp
All the bits with Koki and Ryo – his doorbell, omg! And I love LOVE how you brought that back into the story, and again, much later, when Uchi tells Kame that the doorbell thing only works when the other person doesn't have the keys, that was perfect – were like rays of sunshine peaking through the fog. They made me so happy. *____* Did I tell you I looked like a bipolar mess reading this? I was basically emoting all over myself, idek... #myshame
“Kame wonders if it explains why Kame became a perfect idol, and Jin started showing all these cracks; fissures so large that Jin started fracturing into pieces.” Oh, Maia. This. This felt so weird in my chest. *_____*
“It’s the way a photo of Kame clinging to Jin’s hand looks up at him from a sold out magazine. It’s the way people write faggots on message boards and Kame prays that Jin won’t see it.” And this is where the real crying started. This string of gorgeous lines and terrifying concepts. I'm a fluffy mush-ball when it comes to these things ;_____;
“Am I strong enough to pull you back?” Kame asks, and he’s not sure what he’s asking: strong enough to pull Jin back to Kame, or strong enough to pull Jin back to Jin. Oh god, I, yes. Yes. I secretly love it when I can relate to things. It makes me feel oddly validated.
“He makes so much noise, but inside, he’s quiet.” AND THIS IS PERFECT MAIA. Perfect. This bits about Jin falling to pieces in plain sight made me feel so much like I was standing on my toes with anticipation, trying hard not to fall on my face because I knew I'd get hurt ;____;
And also. ALSO. I must tell you. The interaction between past Kame and Jin, I don't know what you did in those scenes, but it's amazing, they have this strange surreal quality to them, like time's slowed down to a standstill, like they're trying to navigate towards each other through an ocean of molasses and the currents keep pushing them apart, and I LOVED THAT, MAIA. It's freaking AMAZING ;____;
“Kame wonders, sometimes, if he and Jin are the only people in the world whose friendship is moving in a slow and tragic reverse; if it’ll keep slowly devolving until Jin and Kame pass by each other on the street and don’t bother to wave hello.” WHY. WHY DOES THIS HURT SO GOOD.
I will be back! >.> With more flail. I need to do stuff now >.>
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I loved your older version of Kame. He's strong, he's content with his life choices for the most part, but there are also these moments when something slips through the cracks and we can see just how jaded he really is inside, how much he misses that other part of him that got away, and it made me doubt at times, and wonder if it was all just an act. And I loved your older version of Jin because... Kame loved him so much, and later, much later, I loved him because even at forty he's still the same selfish, irresponsible, adorable brat.
"He’s enjoyed not talking about things that make him feel like he’s bleeding inside." That's such an evocative sentence. It's also when I first realised there would be many tears ;____;
"KAT-TUN had saved Kame when Kame was sure he couldn’t be saved. They’d started as strangers, but they’ve become brothers." That is KAT-TUN. That is how I like to think of them. Idek okay. Idek. *____* #myfangirlheart
All those little bits where Kame thinks about love and the Sun... they're just amazing. I don't even know how to comment on them because they're so raw, so intense, pure unadulterated longing and Kame's trying to explain it, to himself, to the world, somehow and asdfghjk And then there's the metaphor with Jin as a t-shirt. I don't even know how that could hit me as hard as it did. #allthetears #imawimp
All the bits with Koki and Ryo – his doorbell, omg! And I love LOVE how you brought that back into the story, and again, much later, when Uchi tells Kame that the doorbell thing only works when the other person doesn't have the keys, that was perfect – were like rays of sunshine peaking through the fog. They made me so happy. *____* Did I tell you I looked like a bipolar mess reading this?
I was basically emoting all over myself, idek...#myshame“Kame wonders if it explains why Kame became a perfect idol, and Jin started showing all these cracks; fissures so large that Jin started fracturing into pieces.” Oh, Maia. This. This felt so weird in my chest. *_____*
“It’s the way a photo of Kame clinging to Jin’s hand looks up at him from a sold out magazine. It’s the way people write faggots on message boards and Kame prays that Jin won’t see it.” And this is where the real crying started. This string of gorgeous lines and terrifying concepts. I'm a fluffy mush-ball when it comes to these things ;_____;
“Am I strong enough to pull you back?” Kame asks, and he’s not sure what he’s asking: strong enough to pull Jin back to Kame, or strong enough to pull Jin back to Jin. Oh god, I, yes. Yes.
I secretly love it when I can relate to things. It makes me feel oddly validated.“He makes so much noise, but inside, he’s quiet.” AND THIS IS PERFECT MAIA. Perfect. This bits about Jin falling to pieces in plain sight made me feel so much like I was standing on my toes with anticipation, trying hard not to fall on my face because I knew I'd get hurt ;____;
And also. ALSO. I must tell you. The interaction between past Kame and Jin, I don't know what you did in those scenes, but it's amazing, they have this strange surreal quality to them, like time's slowed down to a standstill, like they're trying to navigate towards each other through an ocean of molasses and the currents keep pushing them apart, and I LOVED THAT, MAIA. It's freaking AMAZING ;____;
“Kame wonders, sometimes, if he and Jin are the only people in the world whose friendship is moving in a slow and tragic reverse; if it’ll keep slowly devolving until Jin and Kame pass by each other on the street and don’t bother to wave hello.” WHY. WHY DOES THIS HURT SO GOOD.
I will be back! >.> With more flail. I need to do stuff now >.>