OMFG THIS: "Jin’s voice is threading through their own, and they sound so full and whole that Kame throbs with it. KAT-TUN, he thinks. A KAT-TUN where he’s only the ‘K’ and the ‘A’ is soaring, filling in holes and gliding across high notes effortlessly, letting Koki fall back down into his natural range with a surprised smile."
"Soccer players are like me, Jin’s written. Always running." *throws things*
"Kame doesn’t want Jin to have missed him as much as he missed Jin. He wants Jin to have been perfectly happy without him. It would make it easier, Kame thinks, to pretend like he was perfectly happy too. It would make it all this seem worth it, in the end." This is so perfectly crafted.
"Kame’s drawn inexorably closer to the brightly burning sun." LIKE ICARUS
I love this Emily Dickenson poem. ♥
"Jin asks tiny, hesitant questions, like he isn’t sure he’s allowed to know the answers. Like he isn’t sure he’s allowed to ask about Kame’s life." So precise, so real.
“You’re important to me, Jin. And the way you flash hot and cold makes it hard for me to figure out if I’m important to you.” /SO MUCH EMPATHY
"That Jin, now that he doesn’t have Kame to curl up against under the duvet as he hides from the world, isn’t leaving important pieces of himself just lying around for other people to find." ughhhhh T_________T
"It’s easier not to talk to you than to pretend I want less from you than I do." Does it mean I'm fucked up too if I know exactly what he means? Self-preservation.
"I spend my days trying to come up with words that aren’t ‘leave me alone,’ and my nights trying to push back the words I really want to say. I do millions of things it terrifies me to do, and can’t do one of the things I’m most sure of." I don't think this side of Jin has EVER been so well-articulated.
"“I won’t ask you,” Jin says. “I just wanted you to know why I… for years I…” Jin takes a deep breath. “Just be my friend.” Jin’s mouth is swollen and shiny, but Kame knows better than to reach forward and claim it. “Just stay my friend.”" ok, like razors to the heart. so gorgeous and...
"Kame laces their fingers together, and it hurts a little less. “Okay,” Kame says, and Kame gets ready to pretend." and here... I was listening to a song that has the lyrics "what I am to you, you do not need..." *slowly dying*
omg, drunk Jin and Pi and snarky Ryo and hapless Kame and "Kame wants to cry, because Jin will be leaving again soon, and Kame will once again have an empty chest, heart beating wherever Jin takes it." ugh ugh love this.
"Kame can’t help but wonder if he’s going to burn alive, until there’s nothing left of him but ash and dreams he’s long since locked away." i can't. *SOB*
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"Soccer players are like me, Jin’s written. Always running." *throws things*
"Kame doesn’t want Jin to have missed him as much as he missed Jin. He wants Jin to have been perfectly happy without him. It would make it easier, Kame thinks, to pretend like he was perfectly happy too. It would make it all this seem worth it, in the end." This is so perfectly crafted.
"Kame’s drawn inexorably closer to the brightly burning sun." LIKE ICARUS
I love this Emily Dickenson poem. ♥
"Jin asks tiny, hesitant questions, like he isn’t sure he’s allowed to know the answers. Like he isn’t sure he’s allowed to ask about Kame’s life." So precise, so real.
“You’re important to me, Jin. And the way you flash hot and cold makes it hard for me to figure out if I’m important to you.” /SO MUCH EMPATHY
"That Jin, now that he doesn’t have Kame to curl up against under the duvet as he hides from the world, isn’t leaving important pieces of himself just lying around for other people to find." ughhhhh T_________T
"It’s easier not to talk to you than to pretend I want less from you than I do." Does it mean I'm fucked up too if I know exactly what he means? Self-preservation.
"I spend my days trying to come up with words that aren’t ‘leave me alone,’ and my nights trying to push back the words I really want to say. I do millions of things it terrifies me to do, and can’t do one of the things I’m most sure of." I don't think this side of Jin has EVER been so well-articulated.
"“I won’t ask you,” Jin says. “I just wanted you to know why I… for years I…” Jin takes a deep breath. “Just be my friend.” Jin’s mouth is swollen and shiny, but Kame knows better than to reach forward and claim it. “Just stay my friend.”" ok, like razors to the heart. so gorgeous and...
"Kame laces their fingers together, and it hurts a little less. “Okay,” Kame says, and Kame gets ready to pretend." and here... I was listening to a song that has the lyrics "what I am to you, you do not need..." *slowly dying*
omg, drunk Jin and Pi and snarky Ryo and hapless Kame and "Kame wants to cry, because Jin will be leaving again soon, and Kame will once again have an empty chest, heart beating wherever Jin takes it." ugh ugh love this.
"Kame can’t help but wonder if he’s going to burn alive, until there’s nothing left of him but ash and dreams he’s long since locked away." i can't. *SOB*